I just want to write
A free flow of emotions
Needing a release
Is not last night
I had a fight
But on my gloves
Are the Spirit of God
Blowing punches I would have to see to believe
But I believe anyway
So as I get ready to fluff my pillows
And get some sleep
I sigh deeply
Joy comes in the morning
Joy comes in the morning.
I need to get back into writing again. I won’t lie – I came to WordPress wondering; “Did anyone read my blog today?”
Then I looked at my keyboard and felt an urge for a poetic release of sorts.
He tested me today – boy did He test me!
My financial situation may mean I have to leave the country this month. It’s so sudden. I wasn’t planning for it to happen this way but I found out today, less than 24 hours since my last post, that this London adventure may come to an end soon.
Drop everything and just go – running home to momma.
It’s been so long since this video – full of expectation and youthful enthusiasm.
Does that bother me?
There is a sense of relief, because ya’ll… it’s been a real struggle.
You’ve read the poems. You may have sensed it.
I haven’t even told many people yet. But I needed to write. I needed that therapy.
I never understood why some people on YouTube said YouTube is their therapy… I used to wonder; “What are you talkim’ bout?” But today I finally understand.
I’m not looking for encouragement. I know God has this under control. This isn’t a cry for help.
I just need to write.
Maybe that’s the key to the next chapter of my life, no matter the location.
Maybe there is a need to write. God hasn’t opened doors anywhere else yet. I’ve had hundreds of rejections since I started this blog but yet God let me have this blog. And maybe that’s something.
A key of sorts.
But most importantly – we all have Him.
And that’s enough.